and how long has it been now.....?

well, i was reading some other peoples blogs and decided that i feel like some literary relief... a little pensive therapy.. who knows maybe it will help me realise how much work i have to do... i think there are less than two weeks till we go back to school and the amount of work i have to do is astounding... i feel suffocated... but its all my fault in all honesty.. for not doing any work, for deciding that going out with my friends and sleeping as much as i can is more important.. i have major works for art and drama to do as well as my art book, my drama essay, english novel reading and question, english essay and modern history questions,.... and have done none of it except almost finish reading the book, im hoping that while im staying with my aunty (this thursday to early sunday) i will do alot, but being surrounded by the crazy mauritians will not help! arrgghh! lately ive been feeling very nostalgic.. im missing everyone, i love sleeping in particularly on these really cold, gloomy rainy days but i miss the whole group, i see some people but i want it all! last night in bed as i was contemplating my existence i realised that schools almost over... and that is the scariest thing in the world to me as school is my world, maybe not the academic side so much but the people, the atmoshpere, the routine... i dont know how im going to deal with saying goodbye... because i know thats the reality of the situation.. i will have to say goodbye to so many people in my life... my world... people that have touched my life. scary thoughts. however im looking forward to the social side of this year, the camp, the carnivals etc...... and i have decided to take a leaf out of "a walk to remember" (very corny teen movie i watched) and am going to create myself a list of things i want to do before i die... maybe morbid but helpful, i think.... in it i shall include things like getting married, falling inlove, having children and even small weird things that you wouldnt usually think people would care about doing... anyways i like the idea, i dont have alot of drive or ambition in my life, but this is my start to change things... embrace reality... anyways, gotta go to the post office seeya at school